perspective of an amateur

Being in the computer science fraternity and being a man who has found the norms of god religion n faith to be a story with too many loose end i m embarking upon a new project.
I have been considering myself as an atheist for sometime now... recently i had a conversation with a friend which made me realise one thing... neone can make a difference by doing a lot of unlearning...

The following content has a lot of things that are not all acceptable... so before u read forward u should ask urself some questions... 1. are u happy how the world works today, controlled by religion n ter gods... 2. does faith as we know it now really help solve nething... 3. does being an infidel makes sense to u.... i hope after u see these questions u get the nature of this post.

I give u the following things that have always puzzled me for the last 20 years.
I thought god was someone up ter who watched n l8r judged in the early years of my life... then wen confronted with some of the real problems in life i came to a more practical defenition on god: god was an entity, intangible and ever listening to our cries.. a sink to put away stress n trouble... someone to listen to without asking ne questions. But as i went deeper into the problem and saw that even my practical defenition for god is not helping much... i got really disturbed... then i thot being an infidel and not thinking too much was a solution.. n frankly it gave some gud results...

Now for a lil more on the whole infidel buisiness... Being an infidel from a later point of ur life is all about unlearning. kinda showing a "i dont give a rats ass" attitude to certain arguments that people have believed just because they been told to believe it. Well if u ask someone about it they'd say well nobody has proved it and nobody has proved it wrong... kinda like an n p complete problem. N then ter is this, lets say "real beleivers" who'd say ya i have proved it... atleast claim to have proved it... then ter is ther really crazy bunch who would even come up with material evidence of ter proof of the unexplained, who i dont even wanna talk about.
no offense but this story just doesnt make sense,,,, so many loose ends... so many voids in the narrative... less than satisfying plausibility.... n statements of that sort....
Then there is this really annoying transcending human habit of trying to extrapolate the unexplained. Y cant people live without worrying too much about the unexplained. Y cant people acknowledge the fact that there are things that we dont know. n be happy at that... (i would have said more on discovering the unexplained but that would just give room for misinterpretation.. n i m tired of misinterpretation.). So coming back to my topic of being an infidel n unlearning....:
All of us have a religion that is thrust upon us by our birth into a family n a religion thrust upon them due to ter birth n so on... n this teach us a lot of things n norms to follow/not to follow... n l8r wen u really think something is wrong they tell u shut up n keep being ignorant or not to search for a better option. So the actual point of conversion from faithful god fearning to infidel is wen u think "hey y cant i become better than this"... Well some consider this to be a sin of the fourth degree.. but i think its just plain common justifiable behavior... damn me for writing this if u want.. So the process of becoming an infidel starts with a lot of unlearning.

Then i really thought on the topic of religion.... started by searching word meanings... n i stumbled upon this word meaning for the word "matham" the malayam for religion... the root word means "opinion". Then i thot y did people come up with the whole religion business in the first place... n the only answer was to reduce the chaos in our root instincts...(then i read from somewer civilization is a temporary break to chaos). ok so the idea is we need something to follow or we ll alll just go haywire n go crazy. Now is ther a problem.... hell YES ther is a problem... todays religions are so damn unclear... people misinterpret there bottoms off.... n the result is all over the media...

so being an infidel means (atleast to me) boycotting the idea of a personally unacceptable religion n hence the god defined under it period... it has nothing to do with spreading the word or trying to influence, or even the extreme thing of retaliating.. But the real question does it help...
No.... now i think there should be rules of engagement in life... (engagement meaning to fight) everything in life is a fight (strictly personal opinion). so what should an infidel do..... come up with his own sensible opinion ("matham"==religion) n this is wer the becoming better comes from.... in fact the infidel if properly educated n brought up is bound to do the right thing cos he knows to distinguish the real dos n donts.

The open source movement in the world of computing has always caught my attention... y cant we just take it to a different level... how much does it take to come up with a religion..????
all u neeed to do to make a religion is to carve out the boundaries or extents of tolerence we could define for life activities n give room for positive development of the individual the society n the environment... (might be oversimplified but it is definitely a start.) So here i start developing my own religion or better say our "own" religion (addressed to all the infidels who agree with what i say). i use the next post to outline my doctrine or my opinion as a religion.. which is subject to positive n negetive criticism n subject to change, following the reviews i find interesting n sensible...

also i have made the title of this post to sound like a self criticism so as to appeal to the egos of the believers....